Could it be??

The first month I started the progesterone I learned the wonderful side effects. I was blessed with a lot of bloating, cramping and my boobs were so tender. After a few months on the hormone, I had become accustomed to aunt flow arriving a few days late. Let's just say that I got really excited those first couple of months. After four months on the hormone, my period was four days late (which was not unusual). I would always get that little bit of hope in my mind but I would push it away so I would not be disappointed. I was talking to my husband on the phone and he kept telling me to go buy a pregnancy test. I kept telling him that I did not want to waste my money just to be let down. My husband told me that I would need a pregnancy test eventually. He told me to just go buy a pregnancy test and put it under the bathroom cabinet so I would have it.

I went to the store, bought a test and didn't think twice about it. I got home and had to pee so I thought "what the hell?" I got a box with two tests in it so I figured wasting one wouldn't matter that much. So I went to the bathroom and peed on the little stick and immediately felt like this one was going to be different. I no more than got my pants pulled up and there were two blue lines!!! I rubbed my eyes and thought that maybe I had bought a test that was the opposite of what I was use to. I quickly opened the directions to confirm what I hoped was true. IT IS!!! IT IS TRUE!!! I cannot even begin to describe the emotions I experience at that moment. For those of you who do not know me, I am not a very emotional person. I am not really a crier. But at that moment, my heart was racing, my hands were shaking, I was crying and laughing at the same time. It was the most amazing feeling in the world. I just could not believe it. After 18 months of trying, I was FINALLY pregnant!!!

Although I had thought for so long about how I would tell my husband when I finally got that big fat positive, I couldn't wait. I immediately called my husband who was at work. He said "hello" and I screamed "O my God I'm pregnant!!" He kept saying "what?" "are you really?" I just kept laughing and saying "I swear! There's two blue lines!!" Then he told me I was going to give him a heart attack. He told me he loved me and told me to calm down...lol. I then had to call my best friend. Her husband answered and when I asked for her, I'm sure he could tell I had been crying. He gave her the phone I just said "I'm pregnant!" and I was crying and she was screaming and crying. It was the best feeling all over again. I remember saying to her "this test better not be lying to me." She and her husband immediately drove to my house to celebrate. She also brought along another box of pregnancy tests just so I could double confirm. She made me chug a bottle of water so I could pee again. And when the test showed two lines, we screamed all over again. There's nothing like jumping up and down in the middle of your kitchen with your best friend by your side holding a pee stick in your hand!!



My friend had been telling me for weeks that she had a suprise for me. I guess she decided that it was the perfect time to reveal her suprise so she handed me a gift bag. I opened it and found a beautiful silver picture frame that said "Godmother" at the top and "Walking beside me to love, lead and guide me" at the bottom. Inside the frame was a typed letter that read:

Dear Becky,

A godmother is a gift sent from heaven above bringing kisses and hugs and never ending love...

Would you please accept this gift and honor me and Brandon's wish of being Ethan's Godmother?



It was the best gift ever!!! I of course said yes! And we jumped up and down again. Now that I think back on that night, it was one of the happiest moments in my life. What I would give to be able to jump up and down screaming with a pee stick in my hand again.